I was talking with my niece recently, and we were laughing about how much I've really changed. Just like her I used to be so angry at the world. I never really knew how to chill and just be. There was always a point to everything and I had the least bit of patience for people who just seemed to loll about with no sense of direction. And it seemed to me that the world was just full of these poor insufferable fools.
And now I'm one of those people. My point is to just do what feels good. Even if what makes me feel good has no point. Like sitting in my car with the seat pushed back watching the ever changing vista of the clouds moving through the sky.
I miss that clear sense of direction a little, having everything in my life be black and white and knowing what the rules are and following them gave me some sense of order. I always knew where I was coming from and where I was going. But living by other peoples rules and never being able to get it right must have been the source of all that intense rage and depression I carried with me. Man I was mad at the world.
And now I'm one of those people. My point is to just do what feels good. Even if what makes me feel good has no point. Like sitting in my car with the seat pushed back watching the ever changing vista of the clouds moving through the sky.
I miss that clear sense of direction a little, having everything in my life be black and white and knowing what the rules are and following them gave me some sense of order. I always knew where I was coming from and where I was going. But living by other peoples rules and never being able to get it right must have been the source of all that intense rage and depression I carried with me. Man I was mad at the world.
Now that I live by my own standards and make my own rules I feel a sense of freedom that I wouldn't trade for all the perceived rewards that come with towing the line. No matter what I do I cannot possibly get it wrong. For the most part, I am happy and my unhappy moments are just platforms from which I can leap to even more happiness. I'm me doing my own thing and I feel so much love and compassion for others along my journey. I want to wrap the whole world in one big bear hug and thank everyone who crosses my path for being so beautiful.
I see the validity of all paths even those that I have rejected because I know that they all lead to the same place. All roads lead to heaven and it's as simple as taking a moment to tune in to your inner connection with the greater You or struggling through a miserable joyless existence for a number of years until you croak and finally get it.
My life is a wonderful adventure and I am so thrilled to see where all my choices lead me, and I love that knowing what I know now, I mostly choose the good ones, the ones that bring me joy and light and love. I choose to act out of love and desire rather than fear. Laughter, Love, Peace, Joy that's the point and its been going great so far and the better it gets, the better it gets.
More please UM. More delightful interactions with the divine deliciousness that is my awesome life.
I see the validity of all paths even those that I have rejected because I know that they all lead to the same place. All roads lead to heaven and it's as simple as taking a moment to tune in to your inner connection with the greater You or struggling through a miserable joyless existence for a number of years until you croak and finally get it.
My life is a wonderful adventure and I am so thrilled to see where all my choices lead me, and I love that knowing what I know now, I mostly choose the good ones, the ones that bring me joy and light and love. I choose to act out of love and desire rather than fear. Laughter, Love, Peace, Joy that's the point and its been going great so far and the better it gets, the better it gets.
More please UM. More delightful interactions with the divine deliciousness that is my awesome life.
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