embracing the mystery

"For those who know, no explanation is necessary.

For those who don't know, no explanation will suffice."

~Anonymous~

dance of two as one

I am…

Spinning around and around in this Dance of Two as One.

Playing peek-a-boo with perfection

Now I see you, now I don’t

Only each time I look up from my hiding place

I see more I know more I am more.

I am…

Growing

Words of wisdom from about a year ago. Describing this dance that we call life, and love and living. On this path to growth and expansion. Digging into the archives of my thoughts I find myself starting to question the direction of this growth. Glimpses of a past me show me showing up as wiser more sure footed and yet my memory keeps a record of the strides that I have made. Of growth. Of comfort zones that I have stepped out of thus extending my boundaries, exceeding my horizons. And yet the bigger the world gets the the blurrier my path starts to seem. Not so much that the path has changed, but that the perception of it has shifted so that things do not seem so clear. So black and white. And I find myself stepping back a little to get a sense of direction then stepping forward. Dancing still.

This dance plays out in my relationship too. Ebb and flow. In and out. A few steps back, a few steps forward. It seems an inevitable part of life, like there is no clear way around it. Change, impetus, motion and yet all of it leading back to the same place.

The Dance of Two as One.

Why dance? For the joy, for the beauty, for the exhileration. Because it feels good, because the music carries you. Because the entire Universe dances right along with you.

As above, so below. As within, so without.

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder

You get your fill to eat

But always keep that hunger

May you never take one single breath for granted

God forbid love ever leave you empty handed

I hope you still feel small, When you stand by the ocean

Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens

Promise me you'll give fate a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance

I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance

Never settle for the path of least resistance

Living might mean taking chances, But they're worth taking

Lovin' might be a mistake, But it's worth making

Don't let some hell bent heart, Leave you bitter

When you come close to selling out, Reconsider

Give the heavens above, More than just a passing glance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance(Time is a wheel in constant motion always)

I hope you dance(Rolling us along)

I hope you dance(Tell me who)

I hope you dance

(Wants to look back on their years and wonder)(Where those years have gone)

I hope you still feel small, When you stand by the ocean

Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens

Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

Dance

I hope you dance

I hope you dance(Time is a wheel in constant motion always)

I hope you dance(Rolling us along)

I hope you dance(Tell me who)(Wants to look back on their years and wonder)

I hope you dance(Where those years have gone)

(Tell me who)I hope you dance

(Wants to look back on their years and wonder)(Where those years have gone)

Lee Ann Womack - I Hope You Dance Lyrics

letting go

I like to hold on, to keep things firmly in my grasp, in my control.

Its funny I'm suddenly reminded of my niece yesterday at the supermarket. I had run in to get some soda and I asked her to pick out a bottle of juice for herself and while we were waiting at the counter, a guy from the next queue smiled as he looked down at her. "She's hanging onto it so tightly" and I looked down and there was Erica hugging that little bottle to her chest with such a determined look on her face. Staking her claim.

I guess in this big bad world where big people are always telling you not to do things, and taking things away from you saying that they're bad for you. Little people need to be tough. And in an instant I see myself and my difficulty in just letting go. I guess for all the blessings I have received I just don't trust the big God and the big Universe, sure they've given me loads of wonderful things in the past, but you never know when they're going to swoop down and take it away. Which is why I have to be on top of things. Grab everything within reach and hold on to it as tight as can.

But its not always so easy. Little Sam can only do so much and its at times like these that she needs to remember that the big God and the big Universe are looking out for her best interests, and they are just waiting for her to let go so that they can swoop in and make things right. Just as they always have. And in the exact same way Erica trustfully handed me her precious bottle when we got to the counter knowing from past experience that she would get it back once it was swipped past the laser. I need to learn from my past experience and simply... let go and let the big people take care of it.

Just as I always have... eventually

Mercury

Today is the last day of a phenomenon I recently became quite acquainted with. The Mercury retrograde. Three times a year for about three weeks each time, the position of this planet relative to the sun and the earth makes it look like its moving backwards and as a result travel, communications which are usually associated with Mercury appears to be moving backwards too.

I'm not sure if Mercury has anything to do with the spate of car trouble I've been having these past few weeks, but I'll be glad to have things moving forward again.

Breathing in...


... letting go...


... breathing it all out.