going with the flow

Wow. I came across a wonderful delightful AHA! realisation today. It is so big my life will never be the same again. I know I always say this and it is always true. My life is never the same from one day to the next. Everyday I know more, I become more, I choose new thoughts and I become an entirely new person. It is the flow of life. No two days are the same, no two moments either and knowing this is so wonderfully liberating. Life becomes a new adventure and people in my life play ever changing roles and every day, every moment feels so bright and shiny and new.

I love water. There is something about it that is so cleansing. Sun-shower combines two of my most favourite things in the world. Light and water. In many ways light is like water because once you shine a light on something it is changed, it is new, it is cleansed. Knowledge is like that light. When put to its proper use it cannot leave you unchanged. You may choose to act as if things are the same but something's different and you can't run from it. You can try to fight it, you can try to paddle against the current that is carrying you, has always carried you towards change towards adventure towards a series of ever changing moments, but it will still carry you anyway. So much better to let go and go with the flow.

Going with the flow, so deliciously divine. Trusting that the stream of life is carrying you to where you want to be and letting go. Nice.

I had for a while resisted the idea of going with the flow. Something to do with control, but the basis of this quest for control is mistrust. Once I got the trust issue covered and realised that everything is working out in my favour I found myself going with the flow more. It is easy with the little things. To relax, chill out and just let go.

A little harder with the big things. Then the old fears came back. Should I leave this person? Should I quit this job? Am I on the right path? Can I afford this? Where will the money come from? What if I make a mistake? When faced with the bigger decisions, it wasn't so easy to just flow. Some parts of me were saying, Hey this is important! This could change your life. Pay attention! Do something!

Something other than flow.

Then today I came across something that changed the whole way I looked at life. There are no big decisions, just a series of little ones. No big decisions. No big decisions. No big decisions. Just little ones. Should I mail this letter? Should I return that call? Should I buy this? Will I enjoy this experience? Does this taste good? Am I hungry? Easy little ones. And if I can make the right little decisions then the big things take care of themselves. And making the right little decision is easy. Go with the flow. Do what feels right. Relax. Chill out.

Easy peasy.

Life is supposed to be fun.

And knowing what I know now, it truly is.