looking through glass

The sunshine is back. Literally. After a few erratic burst of cloudy weather and rain the sun is back and with it a rather unforseen consequence.

I have always had trouble with too much sun. My eyes get all squinty and if I'm in it long enough I get a headache, I pretty much like to stay out of it when I can, but after finding myself more in the sun than out of it for a while, my eyes started to give me trouble, decided to go for a check-up and two days later, I'm walking out of there with my very first pair of glasses. Photophobia. Or as the doctor put it " You're allergic to the sun."

Its not just the sun though, the computer, tv, even office lighting. Allergic to light would be more apt. So anyway, for the past two days I have been looking at life through glass. Its such an interesting shift. I feel like more of an outsider. An observer. It is so much easier to be detached.

Looking at life though glass I was able to speak up to someone when I felt wronged without getting all emotional about it. Looking at life through glass I am able to put things into perspective. Documents are just documents, tasks are just tasks, I no longer see it as an extension of who I am. Looking at life through glass I was truly able to see a mother's love for her daughter and the wisdom of her choices without bringing myself into the equation and projecting my own issues and judgements into their relationship.

After a whole day of looking though glass I have to say, looking through glass has given me a whole new way of seeing the world. The best part for me though is still taking them off when I don't need them and seeing life as I am used to. It's like a double gift. I have developed a greater appreciation for both views of the world.

There is a certain of irony to it though. Allergic to light. Hmm. Can't help but feel there is a message for me in there, somewhere.

Grateful for it all though.

Thank you Uni.

S