Saturday, October 25, 2014

Living while I'm alive



I've been spending the last few years looking at my life through God's eyes.  It's been the hardest thing.  God's eyes sees perfection where I see flaws.  God's eyes see forgiveness where I see pain and hurt and blame. God's eyes see love where I see routine. The hardest thing though is I cannot 'see' God's eyes.

Through the eyes of faith I see snippets of His Love and His grace.  Through encounters with others that believe in Him I see unity, I see community, I see brokenness and human attempts to love as only God can and I am humbled because in these others I see myself.  I see the destitute nature of my soul. And how impossible it is for me to live without Him.  I am nothing without Him and it is in my emptiness  that I see His wholeness, in my frailties that I see His strength.

God is everything that I am not, except when I choose to be like Him, and then He is everything that I cannot be on my own.  Everything  I have done,  He has made possible because I choose to let Him lead me.  I am alive by default but when I choose to see as God sees, I am able to truly live while I am alive.

Like any other person, I experience heartache but when I turn it over to God I find solace. As I go through my day, I do foolish things but when I expose them to the light of God's truth I find wisdom.  I love with all that I have and instead of feeling frightened and exposed and insecure, my heart is steadfast because I know He who holds my future.  I get disappointed by people but when I look at life, when I look at humanity through God's eyes I see endless possibilities, everyday miracles and opportunities to teach others how to see as God sees.

Choosing to see as God sees, I have purposed to live my life pursuing things that have eternal value.  Living while I am alive. I am God's eyes, I am God hands, I am God's feet and I am God's mouthpiece and only if I live as if this is true do I feel completely alive.  

Lord help me see as you see and live each day as a vessel of your love, your truth and your power. May your wisdom flow through me, your love shine through my actions, your grace be shared with all who I come across and may your Name be glorified in all that I do.

By your grace.  For your glory. In Jesus's name. Amen.


1 comment:

Sheila Wa Tele said...

Love this.