Of course it wasn't totally about the keys. Part of the stress was from yesterdays accident and other part was from years of living with exaggerated emotions otherwise known as bipolar disorder.
I'm actually celebrating the fact that it was a mini anxiety attack and I was able to stop crying after a few minutes and I found the keys :) It really wasn't something to write home about, but thank God for the blogosphere, a space where I can tune in and just say whatever's on my mind. :)
Today I wish my life, specifically my emotions were less extraordinary. My friend Karen once asked me how I do it all. How I seem to thrive with a condition that has brought so many to their knees. I guess the answer is I spend a lot of time on my knees too. Willingly.
One of the exaggerated emotions that I have come to call my friend is an exaggerated need for God. I need God like I need air. Like I need water. Like I need life itself. Thank God He's sufficient to meet all my needs. My need for God doesn't diminish me and it doesn't diminish Him either.
Day after day. Moment after moment. He has been my Refuge, my Shelter. My Fortress, my Hiding Place. My Comfort, My Solace. My place of rest. And the more I search for Him the more I find him. The more I long for Him the more He satisfies my soul. The more I need to run and hide the more I find His arms open wide ready to embrace me, time after time after time.
And so hidden here in His Love. Even my extraordinary life with my sometimes extraordinary emotions can begin to seem rather ordinary.
Thank you LORD for the many ways in which You show up to help me whenever I need You. The difference is You.
The LORD is my Strength and my {impenetrable} Shield; my heart trusts in, relies on and confidently leans on Him, and I am helped; therefore my heart greatly rejoices, and with my song will I praise Him. Psalms 28:7
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